Making Tough Decisions Is… Tough!

Sometimes, you just have to realize that it’s time to make a tough decision. Today, I made one of the toughest decisions that I’ve had to make in a long time.

I’ve decided that it’s time to sell nearly all of my photography gear. Yup, that’s right. Camera, lenses, lights, etc etc. Just about everything (I’ll hang onto my backup camera and maybe a lens or two).

Why did I decide, today, to make this decision? Well, for one, we could certainly use the money. It’s not we’re destitute, but the thought of having about $3,500 worth of photography equipment in the house when that money could go a long way towards bills makes me a little queasy. The gear definitely isn’t bringing in that much (or much at all) money, so they’ve essentially become “toys” at this point. Very expensive toys.

Now, don’t get me wrong… I love photography. I love making photographs and I love seeing people’s faces after I’ve captured something really great. I loved it enough to try and make a go of it as a business. I won’t say I failed. I mean, I managed to get a few good jobs, make a bit of dough, and have a lot of fun doing it, but it never broke into another area. It never felt solid enough to build a real business model on. So now I just happen to have a very expensive hobby, which isn’t a good thing to have when you have debts that you’d rather have paid off.

I’ll still make photos for fun. Maybe not with the fancy, expensive camera and gear that I’ve been using, but with a much more simple setup. In the end, I couldn’t fathom holding onto that much gear when the money could be used elsewhere.

This was, I must admit, one of the most difficult decisions that I’ve had to make in a very long time. It’s not one I wanted to make (and it’s probably one that I’ve actually been putting off), but it’s one that needed to be made now.

When faced with tough decisions, attack them. Make them like you’re ripping off a Band-Aid. It makes it hurt less… or at least for a few minutes, it does. It’s going to hurt, and it’s going to be an unpleasant experience, but the only way to do it successfully is to make that decision and stick to it. What’s done is done, they say, right?

So, with that, I say goodbye to most of my gear. It was fun while it lasted. If anyone wants to see what all that gear created in the past few years, feel free to head on over to Scott Shoots and check out some of my work. The best part of it all is that, in the end, I made some really great friends doing the photography thing and I plan to keep them. At least I got something out of it, right?

**Note: I’ll probably be doing most of my posting at www.scottwrites.com from here on out, so please head on over there, check it out, and subscribe to the RSS feed. Thanks, everyone!

publicity animations | dave white + duane swierczynski

These are the two latest publicity animations I’ve whipped up for a couple of author buddies of mine. The first is for Duane Swierczynski’s forthcoming book Severance Package (in bookstores May 27), and the second is for Dave White’s forthcoming Jackson Donne novel The Evil That Men Do (in bookstores June 17).

I’ve always thought these little things are a great way for authors to get the word out about their books. I create them in several sizes (including one optimized for your instant messenger icon) so you can show them off to everyone. You can even post them on your website and make them available for download. Your fans download the AIM icon, use it, and there’s all the free publicity you could hope for!

If you’re an author, and you’d like one of these animations made for your book, just drop me a line and I’d be happy to discuss it with you.

portraits | carrie + dan + layla

carrie dan layla

the brand new scottshoots.com !!!

site

Well, I’ve been quiet for a little over a week now (don’t worry…I have a ton of updates to rock out), but it’s all for a very good reason. I was working on the all new, exciting, pretty www.scottshoots.com!! Click on the image above or just head on over to www.scottshoots.com and check it out. Stop back here and let me know what you think! I’m super excited about the new site and it’s something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. Rock!

osmol | week 1 - full disclosure

osmol

OSMOL | Week 1 - Full Disclosure

What’s all this OSMOL that I’m talking about? Well, it’s something that I came up with about a year ago. It stands for “Operation Save My Own Life,” and I actually started a separate blog about it then (which, of course, no one was reading), posted to it for about two weeks, and then gave up. It was a simple weight-loss blog and was originally designed to give me motivation to lose the weight I’d put on in the past few years. Again, that blog had maybe two readers (not a whole lot of motivation there, huh?). Well, it’s time that I finally got serious about this weight issue again (thanks in part to motivation from Bobbi and Heather) and, since this blog actually has an audience (trust me, I have the stats to prove it…hehe…), I figured it might be a good place to turn OSMOL into a weekly feature here so people can watch what I’ve been up to weight-wise and hold me accountable.

So, in the nature of full disclosure (and since this is the introductory entry), I’ll give you guys and gals the basic outlines of my “weight story.”

osmol timeline

I guess my weight story really starts in high school where I was athletic (co-captain of varsity baseball and soccer), active, and pretty much always hovering around 185 pounds. Now, for 6 foot 3 inches, 185 is a nice weight. Maybe even a little too on the thin side. High school was good. Very good.Then, I went away to the University of Scranton for two years and discovered the Freshman Fifty. Yeah, that’s right… I didn’t say Freshman Fifteen… I said Freshman Fifty. I remember my roommate and I ordering pizzas every Sunday night and watching wrestling on our 15″ TV. Yup, I said pizzas. Plural. One for each of us. The roommate was one of the skinniest kids I’ve ever seen so it didn’t really effect him, but I ballooooooooned up to about 255 pounds or so after my first two years of college.

After spending two years in Scranton, I decided it was time to come back and finish my BA at Rutgers here in central NJ. Eventually, I also made the choice to try to lose some of that Scranton weight.

It was brutal. I was working out like crazy and being insanely meticulous about my food intake, etc. I would wake up at 5am, hit the gym, go to school, go to work, go back to school for a film screening (I majored in English and Cinema Studies), go running, then hit the gym one more time before sleep. I was about as close to crazy as you can get. But I’m an obsessive personality… that’s how I work. All that work paid off, though, when I actually got down to 180 pounds, which at 6′3″ was way too skinny, but I was healthier than I’d ever been.

About six months later, when I started dating my (eventual) wife, I was at about 185 pounds and in damn good shape. I was happy, healthy, and still very active. Then, I got lazy. And lazier. And lazier. And even more lazy…

Before I knew it, I was back up to around 240 or so. I was heavy but nothing crazy. I even dieted some more (clearly, “diets” don’t work…) and lost about 20 pounds before gaining it all, back, plus some. By the time we got married (October 28, 2006), I was 265 pounds. I hate my wedding pictures and the way I look in them. I hate that my gorgeous wife had to take pictures with her tubby hubby on her wedding day. She’d never say that, of course, but that’s how I felt, even if I never showed it.

In the year and a half or so, since the wedding, I’ve gained about 15 more pounds. My highest weight was 280 and right now I’m about 277. The time is NOW for me to start losing this weight. Obviously, I’ve lost the weight before and I know a lot of the tips and tricks to get me there. I know what it will take. I just need to actually do it this time.

I now work from home full time and I know that can only lead me to gain even more more weight if I don’t do something about it. It’s time for me to get meticulous and a little crazy again. Food journals, working out, eating right… the whole nine yards. It’s time for me to save my own life. I don’t want to feel heavy anymore. Physically heavy. I’m ready to be light and active again, and I want to live a long life with my wonderful wife.

Operation Save My Own Life is in full effect, people. My ultimate goal is to be 215 pounds again by October 28, 2008. I know that I can pull that off if I work hard. If I lose more than that, so be it, but I’d be happy and healthy at 215. What a great anniversary present that would be for the both of us, right?

In the coming weeks and months, I plan to update this blog with all my progress (weigh-in posts every Friday) as well as some tips and advice along the way, but the main OSMOL posts will be on Weigh-In Fridays. Anytime you see that little OSMOL logo on a post, you know it’s an OSMOL post.

Wish me luck, ya’ll… I’m gonna need it. I’m currently about 277 pounds. Let the fun begin!!

portraits | katie

katie dip

portraits | katie + gabby

kat gab portrait

Sometimes I like to go back to my archives and rediscover an older image. This is one of those rediscoveries. From the Katie & Gabby Trash the Prom Dress set, I really like the softness and pastel colors of this one.

dog portraits | izzy, in a giant’s jersey

izzy in jersey

dog portraits | izzy, in b+w before the big game

izz bw

portraits | ryan

ryan port






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